PROUD - TVXQ

Walking in the road I'd think of going back
Seeing your tears I reminisce
Memories I just can't miss

My picture of our past
A timeless sentiment
Every heartbeat that I feel
Is every mile I step away from you

Everynight I count I'd wish of holding you
A candle in an abyss is what I am now

Can't you feel the pain?
From the day you left me here?
You've always been the friend I adore
More than anyone
Even if today
My mind can still recall
The time you saved my heart
From the pain I felt
Everything had already passed
Through the way you changed my whole life

Proud of your love..

Tomorrow I will face the world all by myself
I miss the way you hold my hand
And every smile you shared with me

Tonight I'll pray sometime you'll soon be back to me
I never thought of losing you
For all this time I guessed this love's forever

Even if the strongest storm would come our way
I promise you can always see me help you through

Can't you feel the pain?
From the day you left me here?
You've always been the friend I adore
More than anyone
Even if today
My mind can still recall
The time you saved my heart
From the pain I felt
Everything had already passed
Through the way you changed my whole life

Can't you feel the pain?
From the day you left me here?
You've always been the friend I adore
More than anyone
Even if today
My mind can still recall
The time you saved my heart
From the pain I felt
Everything had already passed
Through the way you changed my whole life

Proud of your love..

Surprise, Surprise...

Well, I came back home on Wednesday night, due to prepare for the examinations tomorrow evening *nervous*. That night, I didn't even practise, I just watched TV the whole night.

On Wednesday, I was trying to see GPK Hem to get his signature, he was nowhere to be found.
I went to the office during recess, after school, when the teacher's absent. He wasn't at the office!! That evening, I had taekwondo, I was kinda mad for not seeing the teacher that day. Before I went to taekwondo practice, I went to the office but still no luck. After taekwondo, I went to the office, GPK Hem had already went back!!
Luckily, the principal is still there. At first thought, I thought... *Wow, soo angry, just wanted to ask..* But then, she approved my letter to go home!! SYUKUR Alhamdulillah... She also knows my name..*Surprised*
You know, then the discipline teacher joked with me, which she rarely does... *Even more suprised*
You know, I guess it's true,.... Everything happens for a reason, Allah promised that.. We just need to be patient and think about it first before judging anything..
Thank goodness.. ^^

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3/4 months later..

I got my examination results..
guess what..??
Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah!!
I got distinction for a high grade *Totally & utterly suprised*
Syukur, syukur, syukur....
But life goes on
and we must keep improving ourselves to be better...

Sometimes I wonder,
which one is harder...
getting better and better and finally be the best,
or being the best at an early stage and staying there,
or even being the best early yet still improving..
is there such a thing??
if there is..
I salute those who does these thing...
Let's pray that we'll all try our best and keep improving..
because there's always room for improvement,
even when we're the best,
because there is no 'the best', is there???
^()^

Mentari muncul lagi...

Mentari muncul lagi
Aku pula masih berdiri di sini
Meniti hari yang saban hari bermula,
Dan akhirnya berakhir dengan jelmaan malam
Berulang-ulang pagi menjelajah
Sehingga tak ku tahu apa yang perlu kulakukan

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Perlukah aku bercinta??
Dengan menghayati bait kata si dia
Puisi jiwang yang dicipta melayangkan jiwa raga

Atau ku perlu beribadah??
Dengan membaca Al-Quran
Di dalamnya tersergam ayat-ayat indah
Sambil membawaku menyusuri jalan ke syurga

Mengapa aku jadi begini
Aku tahu hanya sekejap lagi aku akan mati
Namun aku masih menambah dosa yang sedia banyak
Dapatkah aku sampai ke syurga?
Sedangkan diri ini terlalu kerdil dengan dosa...

Mengapa terciptanya hari esok??
Sedangkan apa yang dilalui adalah sama,
Terus-terusan menambah dosa

Tafsiranku selama ini salah
Hari esok tercipta untuk bertaubat
Meminta ampun dengan apa yang telah dilakukan

Akanku gengam kata putusku ini
Aku mahu bertaubat
Semoga hari masih ada untuk ku..
Semoga mentari akan muncul lagi..

Tr0ubl3d...

Being in a hostel when you're the only one from your school was trasferred..... is a ... TORTURE...
Wanna know why?
I actually entered the school with a friend of mine, but now... she's changed.
She says that I've changed but in truth, she's the one who changed ALOT.
In my opinion, she is .... complicating & manipulating simple stuf,
in other words.... being a hypocrite.
But it's not good to think such horrible things. So, I think she just wants to stand out.
Yeah.. that's it. She wants her high school life to be more meaningful and awesome
than her primary school life....

But.... what about me??
Why do I feel like lost and empty?
Why do I feel like confused yet I don't care?
Why do I feel like my relationships with friends are meaningless??
WHY? WHY?? WHY???

I live every single day with a smiling face..
Thinking everything will be okay....
Yet this heart still is feeling troubled..
Too shy to let it out to anyone..
My best friend is in another school...
So missing her......
Whats wrong with me??
....................

I just want to live everyday knowing a
its all going to be allright.
Knowing everything is meaningful
and has purpose..

Sometimes it may doesn't
But I guess it's okay
Everything does happen for a reason..
That I believe..

SO......
I guess I need to grow a little
And look at things from a different view
Have a pure & clean heart *hoping*
And never judge people
And know that life is full of choices..
Afterall we only live once... ^^